“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.” ~*Audrey Hepburn

Saturday, February 21, 2015

I think people don't realize how hard life is for each person. Just getting through some days is a huge accomplishment. Let me just tell you how much I do not like practicing flute. I love performing for things, don't get me wrong, but practicing. The torture of working alone is just terrible. I would much rather work with kids and missions. But, whatever will get you through college you gotta do. So now I'm back to my torture. Hopefully it will be worth it.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Music has a way of transcending life's difficulties. I'm starting to realize that life is no easy breeze sometimes. Still there are some things that make life beautiful. One of those things is music. The moment you here a powerful voice, listen to a dark sounding cello, or hear a celtic movie soundtrack. Those are the moments I live for. They make the moments of darkness, sickness, and bad days worth it. There is still beauty left in the world.

Sometimes life just gets you down ya know? You start to think about what you don't have and what you're missing out on. I am continually reminded that a man is not going to meet all my needs, only Jesus Christ will do that when I see Him someday. I sometimes wonder if people really care and if Jesus is really listening when I pray to Him. I cry out to Him at times in complete confusion and despair. This is just a part of my struggle.

There have been times when I have been down and a minor song plays on the radio and completely reaching out to me. This is why I would find it interesting to go into musical therapy. People that are depressed need something to lift them out of it. It would be like being used as a super hero for depressed people.


Friday, February 6, 2015

Thursday, February 5, 2015


Just thinking today about how greatful I am to have a God I can come to any time in prayer and in worship. I have recently started worship dance and worshiping with other girls through dance is so very sweet (even if you aren't very good like me). In some of the darkest times of my life, I have been able to sing and get through those times. We always have our voice, which is such a comfort. I remember being stuck in a very gross hospital, and feeling God's presence dearly. 

Speaking of God's presence, sometimes I feel like it comes when we least expect it. The other day I was in a worship service, and I honestly just wanted to go home. Through the singing as a group, the holy spirit just started working and it was marvelous to be a part of.

Monday, February 2, 2015

Some days Africa stays on my mind. It was such a beautiful place with lots of memories. Then I remember I am called to be here right now helping my family even though I would much rather be in a exotic place. The words of this song come to mind:

When I find myself so far from home
And You lead me somewhere I don't wanna go
Even in my death, I'll follow You
Even in my death, I'll follow You

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Have you ever felt overwhelmed by life? Like there's all this stuff you have to do and you just don't know how to get it all done? You just don't feel like doing any of it to be truthful. :) That's how I feel today.

Anyway, I won't bore you to death with that. Lately, I've been really impressed by the Christian singer Moriah Peters. Her example of purity and sweet attitude really made a impression on me. What singers have influenced you?

Monday, January 26, 2015

Hello world! It's been a long while, but I'm back at least for now. I have had some bad times since the last time I have written, but I am excited to be back to normal health wise. It's such a amazing thing when God teaches us the lessons that he has for us to learn. God has to continually humble me on a regular basis. He has shut some doors for my future, but now a better path is wide open. I have gotten discouraged pretty often, but I am around some great people at my church that have prayed for me and helped me through it.

I think I need to change what I put on here, because I want my posts to be more centered around Christ and what He is doing in my life.

Recently I have started sitting down and just focusing on Jesus-praying and waiting to hear from Him. It has completely changed my closeness with Him. I used to get lonely, but I now am closer with Jesus and praise God it is all gone.

Ohhhh! I have started worship dance, and have found that to be a great outlet to praise God and meet other sweet girls.

Still trying to dress modestly, although sometimes I need help in that area. One thing I'm going to be praying for is more girlfriends who honor this standard.

Monday, October 6, 2014

Hello world! It's been awhile. I'm telling ya, my life has been WAY nutty lately, so I won't burden you with it all. Here's the good stuff:

in love with the last one anyone have $150 I can borrow?

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Those children are still in my heart and will always be (*catch up* I went on a trip to Namibia last year). Please pray for them and for me.

I will never be the same, physically and emotionally, but it was worth it.

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Charlotte Bronte

Today the outside looks much like a Charlotte Bronte novel. Beauty unseen and glib. Looks like I will be stuck indoors for much of the day. Depressing as it seems, the past keeps plaguing me. God has allowed me to go through sad times to make me who I am today. If I hadn't gone through those sad times, times of darkness and loss of hope, times of being stuck with nobody except God, I would be a very spoiled person with no life, unable to empathize with others, and very independent of God. Oh how sweet it is to have family right beside you! I feel like a Queen. The smell of French toast warms me as I sit beside a fire aglow. I will now find some pictures from Charlotte Bronte beauty to warm your heart as well. Beauty for yooooooooooouuuuuu!!!!!

Here is a picture of beautiful Jamaica

missing that place very much today!
Survivor has a way of making everything better!