“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.” ~*Audrey Hepburn

Sunday, May 24, 2015

Come to Me

Jesus is leading and guarding my soul. I am starting to think that it would be great to help orphans for a time. I don't know what that is going to look like, but in some way. I have explored different options, but none of them have taken possession of my heart like the parentless and abused. As I am listening to this song as I write this.....it goes like this:

I am the Lord your peace
No evil will conquer you
Steady now your heart and mind
Come into my rest
And oh, let your faith arise
And lift up your weary head
I am with you
Wherever you go
I love where it says "no evil will conquer you". We will go through many hard times on earth, and sometimes we remember those hard times, but in the end we will be with our beautiful savior whose voice is more soothing then any man on earth. He knows our desires and needs, and he fulfills them.

Lift up your weary head. This is lovely. It makes me think of a Esther movie I watched years ago. I think of lifting up like you are looking toward Christ is what I think about.

I have learned that guys, food, and other things really can't give me what I am looking for. I have a weakness, and I am always looking for ways to fulfill it. Crying out to God until you find Him is the key.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

So many decisions have come into my lap. I've been accepted at two colleges.....but am not sure about the school thing. Writing helps me solve things.  I have started thinking, what might happen if I stay home and help my mom for a couple years with the aim to just get married and have kids? I think it would be beautiful to be with your best friend and be able to take care of each other. As I watch my grandparents and how much they love and help each other, it amazes me.

On another event, you are able to do things when you are single that you couldn't do if you were married with kids. I would love to help my mom get organized. The cooking thing I gotta work on tho! We shall see, we shall see! God's gonna do something amazing I am sure.

Saturday, February 21, 2015

I think people don't realize how hard life is for each person. Just getting through some days is a huge accomplishment. Let me just tell you how much I do not like practicing flute. I love performing for things, don't get me wrong, but practicing. The torture of working alone is just terrible. I would much rather work with kids and missions. But, whatever will get you through college you gotta do. So now I'm back to my torture. Hopefully it will be worth it.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Music has a way of transcending life's difficulties. I'm starting to realize that life is no easy breeze sometimes. Still there are some things that make life beautiful. One of those things is music. The moment you here a powerful voice, listen to a dark sounding cello, or hear a celtic movie soundtrack. Those are the moments I live for. They make the moments of darkness, sickness, and bad days worth it. There is still beauty left in the world.

Sometimes life just gets you down ya know? You start to think about what you don't have and what you're missing out on. I am continually reminded that a man is not going to meet all my needs, only Jesus Christ will do that when I see Him someday. I sometimes wonder if people really care and if Jesus is really listening when I pray to Him. I cry out to Him at times in complete confusion and despair. This is just a part of my struggle.

There have been times when I have been down and a minor song plays on the radio and completely reaching out to me. This is why I would find it interesting to go into musical therapy. People that are depressed need something to lift them out of it. It would be like being used as a super hero for depressed people.


Friday, February 6, 2015

Thursday, February 5, 2015


Just thinking today about how greatful I am to have a God I can come to any time in prayer and in worship. I have recently started worship dance and worshiping with other girls through dance is so very sweet (even if you aren't very good like me). In some of the darkest times of my life, I have been able to sing and get through those times. We always have our voice, which is such a comfort. I remember being stuck in a very gross hospital, and feeling God's presence dearly. 

Speaking of God's presence, sometimes I feel like it comes when we least expect it. The other day I was in a worship service, and I honestly just wanted to go home. Through the singing as a group, the holy spirit just started working and it was marvelous to be a part of.

Monday, February 2, 2015

Some days Africa stays on my mind. It was such a beautiful place with lots of memories. Then I remember I am called to be here right now helping my family even though I would much rather be in a exotic place. The words of this song come to mind:

When I find myself so far from home
And You lead me somewhere I don't wanna go
Even in my death, I'll follow You
Even in my death, I'll follow You

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Have you ever felt overwhelmed by life? Like there's all this stuff you have to do and you just don't know how to get it all done? You just don't feel like doing any of it to be truthful. :) That's how I feel today.

Anyway, I won't bore you to death with that. Lately, I've been really impressed by the Christian singer Moriah Peters. Her example of purity and sweet attitude really made a impression on me. What singers have influenced you?

Monday, January 26, 2015

Hello world! It's been a long while, but I'm back at least for now. I have had some bad times since the last time I have written, but I am excited to be back to normal health wise. It's such a amazing thing when God teaches us the lessons that he has for us to learn. God has to continually humble me on a regular basis. He has shut some doors for my future, but now a better path is wide open. I have gotten discouraged pretty often, but I am around some great people at my church that have prayed for me and helped me through it.

I think I need to change what I put on here, because I want my posts to be more centered around Christ and what He is doing in my life.

Recently I have started sitting down and just focusing on Jesus-praying and waiting to hear from Him. It has completely changed my closeness with Him. I used to get lonely, but I now am closer with Jesus and praise God it is all gone.

Ohhhh! I have started worship dance, and have found that to be a great outlet to praise God and meet other sweet girls.

Still trying to dress modestly, although sometimes I need help in that area. One thing I'm going to be praying for is more girlfriends who honor this standard.

Monday, October 6, 2014

Hello world! It's been awhile. I'm telling ya, my life has been WAY nutty lately, so I won't burden you with it all. Here's the good stuff:

in love with the last one anyone have $150 I can borrow?